Wow. I can’t believe another new year is already upon us. It’s always at the beginning of a new year that we’re full of fresh ideas and resolve to do things better than we did them in the previous 12 months.
This year I plan to make it a point to share who I am with the world. God didn’t put me here to keep my gifts and talents all to myself. So I am really going to make it a point to come out of my comfort zone and share what I have to offer. It may not be for everyone, and that’s okay! I’m okay with it because whoever needs what I have will get it, and for those who don’t need it I wish them well just the same and perhaps they know someone who does need what I have to share. At any rate, it’s not my job to worry about who will like it and who won’t; who will receive what I have with an open heart and mind and take action and who won’t. My job is simply to share.
So, as part of my ultimate plan to share with the world, I’ve decided to begin sharing with you a little piece of my own self-therapy that I went through about 18 months ago when we first moved to Texas.
As some of you know, that move here to Texas back in the summer of 2008 was the second major relocation we had taken on in an 11-month time span. Both those moves shook me up in a way that was completely unexpected and I eventually realized that I was experiencing my very own early midlife “celebration”. Although I’ll be quite honest that at the time in my mind it was a full blown crisis.
Once I realized what I was experiencing I also wanted to figure out how to get out of my funk and as quickly as possible because it just wasn’t a good place to be in. I had to begin asking myself a lot of tough questions, some of them I wasn’t really ready to be honest with myself but I did it anyway. The purpose of those deep questions was to help me reconnect with myself. One of the questions I had to ask myself was “What do I miss?”. After becoming a wife and mother, as so many other wives and moms can relate to, I seemed to lose myself in my wifely/motherly roles and forgot all about Kitara. So I started making an account of all those things big and small from childhood through adulthood that I missed in my life.
The point of recalling these things wasn’t necessarily to bring them all back into my life, but to simply honor those things that I used to love and enjoy that were no longer in my life. By doing this, I knew that some things I would reintroduce into my life and others I could not or would not as they no longer served me and just didn’t have a place in my life any longer. But, regardless to whether or not some of these things made a reappearance in my life or not, I wanted to simply honor them by recalling and acknowledging them on paper.
What I Miss Mondays, beginning Monday, January 4, 2010, will be me sharing with you all of those things that I recalled and honored from my life as part of my healing journey. It it is my hope that in some small way I may inspire you to recall those things in your life that you may have lost connection with…those things that make you uniquely YOU.